A David Psalm, After He Was Confronted by Nathan About the Affair with Bathsheba
1-3 Generous in love—God, give grace!
Huge in mercy—wipe out my bad record.
Scrub away my guilt,
soak out my sins in your laundry.
I know how bad I’ve been;
my sins are staring me down.
4-6 You’re the One I’ve violated, and you’ve seen
it all, seen the full extent of my evil.
You have all the facts before you;
whatever you decide about me is fair.
I’ve been out of step with you for a long time,
in the wrong since before I was born.
What you’re after is truth from the inside out.
Enter me, then; conceive a new, true life.
7-15 Soak me in your laundry and I’ll come out clean,
scrub me and I’ll have a snow-white life.
Tune me in to foot-tapping songs,
set these once-broken bones to dancing.
Don’t look too close for blemishes,
give me a clean bill of health.
God, make a fresh start in me,
shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life.
Don’t throw me out with the trash,
or fail to breathe holiness in me.
Bring me back from gray exile,
put a fresh wind in my sails!
Give me a job teaching rebels your ways
so the lost can find their way home.
Commute my death sentence, God, my salvation God,
and I’ll sing anthems to your life-giving ways.
Unbutton my lips, dear God;
I’ll let loose with your praise.
16-17 Going through the motions doesn’t please you,
a flawless performance is nothing to you.
I learned God-worship
when my pride was shattered.
Heart-shattered lives ready for love
don’t for a moment escape God’s notice.
18-19 Make Zion the place you delight in,
repair Jerusalem’s broken-down walls.
Then you’ll get real worship from us,
acts of worship small and large,
Including all the bulls
they can heave onto your altar!
“Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and who I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be…….and when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: Before I die, I want to be somebody’s favorite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe.”—
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”—Marianne Williamson
“Our job is to love people. When it hurts. When it’s awkward. When it’s uncool and embarrassing. Our job is to stand together, to carry the burdens of one another and to meet each other in our questions.”—Jamie Tworkowksi (via godmoves)
There is freedom within, there is freedom without Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup There’s a battle ahead, many battles are lost But you’ll never see the end of the road While you’re traveling with me
Hey now, hey now Don’t dream it’s over Hey now, hey now When the world comes in They come, they come To build a wall between us We know they won’t win
Now I’m towing my car, there’s a hole in the roof My possessions are causing me suspicion but there’s no proof In the paper today tales of war and of waste But you turn right over to the T.V. page
Now I’m walking again to the beat of a drum And I’m counting the steps to the door of your heart Only shadows ahead barely clearing the roof Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief
Hey now, hey now Don’t dream it’s over Hey now, hey now When the world comes in They come, they come To build a wall between us Don’t ever let them win
The second I begin to think “I’ve spent enough time with Jesus today,” I’ve lost.
Putting “Who I am” first, requires prioritizing quality time with Jesus. While some days that might look like 15 minutes, others it may need to look like much much more. The second I start to think “how long do I
Angela Thomas’ book Do You Think I’m Beautiful has a lot of really insightful things i believe women struggle with. Some of us want to know we are beautiful physically, while others struggle to know that even with a sinful heart, we are beautiful on the inside. We want to know that people see beauty from the inside out. She quotes:
"I don’t think this is just my story. I truly believe that the longing to be known as beautiful is a part of our our design as women. God put us together this way on purpose. We are wired to long for beauty and to be known as beautiful, yet the world does a wonderful job of squelching this desire."
I think as women we know this but we don’t truly believe it. The God that made the cells in our body designed us to have this longing. And in his complicated design of us women, only he can truly make us feel beautiful. So why do we still search for the approval of others? Why do we find ourselves not believing our worth and beauty known by our Creator is enough to satisfy? It’s because we live in an upside down kingdom. We live in a world that says that beauty is found from the outside inward. When Jesus sees our heart, the heart that is seeking truth and love, he is enthralled. “Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised” Proverbs 31:30. And Angela hits this point it square on: “If the question ‘do you think I’m beautiful came’ attached to my soul, then maybe the answer wasn’t ever meant to fully come from this world.” Now i can rest in that.